Everyday Confessions #1 and #2

Confesstion #1 I love cheesey pick up lines:) Confession #2 I love Makayla Terry:)

I can't pretend.

Im done pretending i dont love you. Im done wishing you'd sweep me off my feet. I'm done hoping some how someway she'll screw up and i won't have to pretend anymore like i hate you. I dont wanna hide i no more. Your what i want. Your what i think about. Your what i need. I hear our song playin on the radio. I can laugh i can smile i can be happy but i cant laugh like i could when i was with you. im not as happy as i was when i was with you. i can smile but... its not as good as it once was.
SO im done pretending im done wishing im done hiding it from you.... im gunna tell you that.........








I LOVE YOU!!

Papa Smurf

I will never forget the way he looked at me. 
He left that face in my head... sorta as if god had planned it there for me to remember.
It seemed perfectly perfect for so long.
Grandpa you were my hero.

I wanted you to be ok.
I wanted you to pull out of it.
I wanted you to wake up and for once just be OK.
I needed you to be ok.....So, i could be.
I never to you how much you meant to me or that i loved you.
I wake up every morning wondering if your place up there is plated in gold.


Im not ok
And your better now
My heart screams out with rage
Im not ready to let go and now your time is up
I didnt believe anything that they all said about it being your time.

Lord know that Justin Moore hit the nail on the head with the song Grandpa.
I cry threw my whole paper for my english class
You were my kinda superhero
Superman, batman, ironman and spiderman never lived up to the name "superhero"
Daddy always says he'd die to be half the man you were, little does he know in my eyes he is.
Seeing you work on that farm made you seem like the strongest man in the world
You walked the walk, talked the talk, Grandpa

                       I love you baby:)) Next month with be 6 months:)) Heres to us:)

 

Am i worth it anymore??

I'm tired of everything you've done to me. i wanna give up and pull the covers over my head. when I'm sad or upset i listen to our song and it cheers me up and i can smile but tonight it doesn't work. the tears steam down my face. Nemo trys to care for me but i just can't let it go. your suppose to be the one making sure I'm ok. I've always cared about you and let you lay your head on my shoulder when your upset. When you miss me i call you and tell you i love you a million times just so you remember. Never have i doubted your love but for once in my life my hope is fading, my faith is melting, and my heart is breaking over you. Tonight when i go to bed it wont matter to me if i wake up late or if i even care to get out of bed. Tomorrow i wont mind if you don't kiss me, hug me, hold me, or tell me you love me. If your finally done doing whatever it is that your trying to do i wouldn't mind you back. i didn't get out of my last relationship so i could jump back in to one that is the same!!! I may be only a teenager and think i know what love is but i believe that you can know what love is at any age. don't fight with me cause your argument is invalid. So am i worth it to you? was it all a game? am all you say i am? One day i hope you understand that i wouldn't give you up for the world!All ive done is love you!!!!!!!!!!!  so tell me Am I Worth It Anymore??

I miss you baby:'(

I miss you soo much i see you at school but its not enough. I try talking to you on the phone and feel better and it makes me feel better but you always seem to stay upset no matter what i do. i try soo hard to make you feel better but i feel like a total failure and like nothing i do is good enough. You make me feel like im not good enough to make you feel better i honestly understand you miss me and that you just wanna be with me but you start to treat me like shit when you get upset. I just what you to be happy baby:) I miss you and i just wanna see that smile on your face again. Bright and happy. Sweet and calm. Meaningful and cherishing. Adorable and cute. Breathe taking and Amazing:) i love you so much and i hope if you ever get the chance you'll understand that i just want you to be happy even when i cant make you.

I'll love you forever and always:)

The truth just might be this!

It's not that i meant everything i said. I don't hate you either but everything i said it ..... MEANT NOTHING.... So... its hard to explain to you that caring about you is hard for me. I show it in ways that many would consider not to be the way of showing someone that you still care bout them or miss them. i guess you could call it being a bitch the way i show it. Daddy never really liked you. But that didnt matter to me i loved you.. and i still think i do.... well the old you cause i dont know the real you. Some people would say that you changed... ok a lot of people say you changed but in my opinion you didnt change at all because your just living your life they way you want it.  And its not they way other people what it to be. Your happy and im starting to believe that maybe just im making things worse for myself by talking to you. I dont know what to do anymore i thought i loved you but maybe i was just wrong.

It's Your Love By Tim McGraw

Yeah, yeah

Dancin' in the dark, middle of the night
Takin' your heart and holdin' it tight
Emotional touch, touchin' my skin
And asking you to do
What you've been doin' all over again

Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go?

It's your love
It just does something to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough

And if you wonder
About the spell I'm under
Oh, it's your love

Better than I was, more than I am
And all of this happened by taking your hand
And who I am now is who I wanted to be
And now that we're together
I'm stronger than ever, I'm happy and free
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/tim-mcGraw-lyrics/it_s-your-love-lyrics.html ]

Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
If you asked me why I've changed
All I gotta do is say your sweet name

It's your love
It just does something to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough

And if you wonder
About the spell I'm under
Oh, it's your love

Oh, oh, oh, baby

Oh, it's a beautiful thing
Don't think I can keep it all in
I just gotta let you know
What it is that won't let me go?

It's your love
It just does something to me
It sends a shock right through me
I can't get enough

And if you wonder
About the spell I'm under
Oh, it's your love

It's your love
It's your love

Every cute couples gotta have there song:))
December 22nd 2011 :))

Goodbye, Hello

I never had the fear of falling in love. We all want to fall in love the feel of loving someone and being loved back. But there's always that one that makes you feel everything. Butterflies, hurt, happinessm, love, lust and sadness. He can make you feel like he's really the one...until.... Friday night your sitting on your bed cryin your eyes out hes left you... you feel nothing.....you let the tears fall but hes left you so much ur just not sure what the real reason for you tears are...... So now everyday i put up my graud. Most guys think they see everything but really they only see the fake whole part i dont allow my brokeness to get in the way i forget about you and i smile because i know im beautiful. And i don't need you to tell me other wise:)

I'm done with your games and im afraid of love, but today im stronger then ever I'm Kaitlynn and im beautiful and i dont need any stupid boy to tell me soo with that,,
Goodbye Adam
9/3/11

Hello Taylor
9/13/11




Kiss me goodnight, and tell me how much you love me && dont slap me in the face and tell me you can do better... cuz i really used to love you

Kaity & Tay

I LOVE YOU!!!!! We've basically been dating since ummmm......Early September... but haven't and this is what i gotta say bout Tay:))
He's got the most georgous eyes ever there like green blueish grayish haha crazy right but amazing:)
The way he smiles makes me melt.
The way he kisses me makes me feel high:))
I love the way he says my name!
He gives me butterflies when he says he loves me!
All i can do is smile when i'm with my love bugg:))


I LOVE YOU TAY:))

kAiTY & tAY<3

No Love

I wish i could say i missed you but i dont. I wish i could tell you i still love you without it being a lie. I wish i could say were working on 1 year and a month. But the truth is im wishin Me and Him were working on 2 months.

I can't love you any longer it is time for you to move on  to a different day.

Love for no longer, Kaity

Left Shoe On Right & Right Shoe On Left

Now days teenagers find stupid jokes to be funny. Which i have yet to understand how i mean really, is there any reason to tell the girl that is head over heals in love with you that you broke up with your girl friend for her. I think not. Yes that would not be something that a girl would kill herself over but if you think about the worse things that teenagers joke about and say to each other kinda that sets  teenagers off  the cliff. I'm not saying me... i'm planted firmly on this cliff about 900 feet from the edge.
If you think about what some teens say to the homosexal people you'd understand you may say there over dramatic but bare with me a sec.... Lets say its weird to be what you people call "normal". Your pestered every day about the way you look at guys if ur a girl and girls if your a guy. All you know is that your attacked to a diff gender. Think about it put that right shoe on the left foot.
What about the kids that get made fun of for no apparent reason... maybe they have a disorder, or maybe there not all there in the head. You dont know there life you dont even know them and even if you "THINK" you know them im sure you have no cule about them.
Jam that damn right foot in that left shoe look on the other side of the closed door have you givin' them the chance to open up to you. I bet not.
Some times you just talkin to a person at the right time makes a big difference. I guess this post had no meaning but i guess im just tired of the way ppl treat eachother totally not far.
Oh and take a peek behind that closed door you'd be suprised what you'll find trust me. But make sure you knock first some doors are closed for a reason...

nor·mal /ˈnɔrməl/ [nawr-muhl]

How do I get back to normal? Was I ever normal? What is normal?

nor·mal /ˈnɔrməl/ [nawr-muhl]

adjective

1.conforming to the standard or the common type: usual; not abnormal; regular; natrual..

2.serving to establish a standard.

 

THANK YOU GOOGLE:))

 

Ok so back to what I was saying. I'm very much different from others.. people start talkin to me and i think they get really annoyed with me...I never know what i talking bout people start laughing like ik what im talking bout ummm.... news flash to ya'll i have no clue as to what im talking bout im just kinda... for lack of a better word im STUPID O.o  

Well so now im trying to be normal but i've started doin things that are not takin me down a very good path i wanna be a model but ive started... umm never mind i think i should go now

Shit there goes the barrel of monkey ill figure something out..........i think...........

GUYS!!!

Moving on a topic i've never quite learned. Its very difficult for me cause im soo easily love struck. I still love him, you, us. I just have a problem with it all i loved most of them i don't know if i truly know what love is or not but i have this small feelin that i do. Maybe i dont but i guess there's only one way to fined out right.


Every boy that breaks my heart makes me a "Stronger Woman".   Every guy i've gone for has been older then me. By a couple years 16, 17, 18, 19 is there something wrong with me or is it just something i do. But then again all the guys in my school are like 5 year olds in teenagers bodies.
STUPID!!!!!!

But they guys that are like 17 are staring to be a little nicer and have a heart.

OHHHH MY LANTA MY STUDY HALL IS SOO ANNOYING BOYS.

I hate hangin out with chicks theres really only two my besties Nina and Vannah. i choose to hang with guys....LESS DRAMA!

I know, Why

I know you love me so why do you act  like you dont.
I know you wanna be mine so why do you act like you dont.
I know you like being with me so why do you act like i dont.
I know there's something bothering you, so why do you blame it on me.
I know you say you want me but do you really?
I know that when your standing in front of me you physically there but in your eyes your really not here with me.
So
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Why do i sit here everyday reaching out for you.
Why do i have to beg for you to show me your love
Why do i have to miss you when you live jut down the block
Why do i have to lay in bed and cry relivin' the worst nightmare of my lif over again.
Why do i have to listen to you apologize all the time for you hurtin me tellin me that you never ment to say it.
Why do i have to lay in bed staring at the celing feelin like im not good enough for you
Why do i have to miss you when your standing right in front of my face.
Why do i have to wake up scared cuz u might leave me
Why do i have to look in your eyes and still miss you.
Why do i have to feel like im the only one lovin someone in this relationship.....
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I LOVE YOU DO YOU SITLL LOVE ME