The truth just might be this!

It's not that i meant everything i said. I don't hate you either but everything i said it ..... MEANT NOTHING.... So... its hard to explain to you that caring about you is hard for me. I show it in ways that many would consider not to be the way of showing someone that you still care bout them or miss them. i guess you could call it being a bitch the way i show it. Daddy never really liked you. But that didnt matter to me i loved you.. and i still think i do.... well the old you cause i dont know the real you. Some people would say that you changed... ok a lot of people say you changed but in my opinion you didnt change at all because your just living your life they way you want it.  And its not they way other people what it to be. Your happy and im starting to believe that maybe just im making things worse for myself by talking to you. I dont know what to do anymore i thought i loved you but maybe i was just wrong.